stigmatized

Mon, 15 May 2006 06:59:54 GMT

Today my mom told me that this was the best Mother's Day ever, and I don't know why, but it really bothered me.

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 04:51:39 GMT

i feel helpless and i hate feeling this way. I think that these past couple months have distanced me from some people...maybe that's for the better i don't know. I just don't feel like talking anymore.

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 22:14:55 GMT

sick, bra.

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 23:06:39 GMT

nobody updates anymore...it's kind of sad because now i have nothing to look forward to. i miss people.

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 05:23:09 GMT

i emailed jamba juice about the bad service they have and the rude workers there and they replied with A COMPLIMENTARY SMOOTHIE! yeah bitch, i win. customers always win, bitch.

i'm so stressed out...ough.

summer lovin' had me a blast.

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 02:44:51 GMT

so the beach on saturday with the volleyball team was kind of a dud for me. people were either drunk or they were off cuddling with their boyfriends, and me? i was sitting and eating. how fun...not.

volleyball pretty much sucks right now or maybe i'm just pmsing.

and i want to see john really bad because
1)i'm being moody and he's the only one that can handle my rollercoaster ride. hah.
2)i miss him and i feel like i never ever see him.
3)he makes me laugh
4)he buys me food and we go on adventures
5)i want him to hold me and tell me everything's going to be all right.

enough of this emo shit...next

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 19:23:10 GMT

a girl answered his phone.

i hate girls soooo much.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 03:45:23 GMT

i hate this...i just wrote a fucking entry wtf. i'm pissed.

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 04:57:44 GMT

i've been so tired lately and i haven't been able to have an ongoing social life because i'm always drained. i miss my old life minus a few mistakes.

love,
krista

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 05:21:57 GMT

It's time for me to grow up...no more messing around.

I got to see tawnee today, yay! we went to the outlet center and bought some tacos. on the way home this old homeless tweaker guy with missing teeth sat next to us and started talking (yelling) about how he lived in germany and all these other places. He smelled like alcohol and it made me sick. It makes me never want to be near any drugs or alcohol...and, i hope to God that I nor any of my friends turn out anything like that. it's scary. It's sad. I wanted to help him.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 04:53:13 GMT

i made varsity. go me.

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 04:19:56 GMT

this is what i get...

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 01:01:04 GMT

we passed the test...HAHAHA. now i can laugh in your faces because you were wrong.

i suck at things...i sucked at volleyball today because i was so freaking sore.

i miss sleeping with him. he's my escape.

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 21:01:27 GMT

boys are mean.

and i'm trying out for volleyball.

good luck me.

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 20:29:58 GMT

So next weekend i graduate...yes!!!

other than that...nothing is happening in my long days and boring nights. i miss my friends. i miss seeing them everyday. oh and i might try out for volleyball...i don't know yet. i'm kind of lazy.

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 01:51:42 GMT

krista, darling:
you`re a pain in the ass.

love, kim.

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 04:13:42 GMT

okay i lied. what can i say??? i'm a sucker.

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 18:30:38 GMT

i broke up with john
i'm really really sad...

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 23:55:35 GMT

kim,

Fix my livejournal for me, yeah? i want the same picture in the background...but can you make it pretty? cus i suck. get back to me...love you,the one and only, krista

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 20:48:43 GMT

I just may be the most boring person in the world...i swear. Nobody calls me anymore and i have no one to hang out with. What does my life consist of? hmm...let me think. i go to school. i go to meetings. that's it. that's all. I'm tired of it. i'm tired of being bored and alone all the time. I want to go out and go places. I wish my cousins were still here. I wish things were the way they used to be.

-krista.

p.s. Kiera Knightly(sp?) is my new gf.

marijuana is illegal for a reason...it is a drug whether you like it or not. But I guess it's just a phase teenagers go through until they realize how boring it actually becomes and that there is really no point in doing it. Because you know, the best way to feel good is by doing drugs...you just can't do it by yourself.

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 17:38:18 GMT

My cousins are in town from chicago, yes exciting. I've been actually living at my dad's house. It's kind of wierd. Decisions, decisions. AND AND AND!!! Two of my closest friends are back in town! Life is almost as was and it's exciting to look forward to. Now if i could only see my best friend, life would be great...almost.

she loves you yeah, yeah, yeah.

p.s. I watched Crank in America last night and it was actually more tempting than anything else, and i'm scared of relapsing.

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 02:49:36 GMT

oh my god oh my god...

So as for everything...

...i want my life back.
...i miss all of my friends.
...I don't have any more friends.
...I still have to go to Otay.
...Things aren't fixed.
yet everything has changed, for the worse might i add.
...i can't trust anyone, except for the four precious people in my life who haven't stabbed me in the back.
...school starts soon
...i've been grounded for way too long
...I saw the Notebook and i fell in love.
...i miss laura kim and _ _ _ _.
...Tawnee is my favorite.
...drugs are not on my mind any longer.
and i'm wasting away on my summer vacation.

<3krista

Sat, 15 May 2004 00:17:26 GMT

this is over with.

<3always,krista.

Wed, 05 May 2004 00:25:47 GMT

i hate running out of minutes.where are you?

i talk on the phone too much. i love talking to you.

i hate fighting. i always start the fights.

i hate getting stomach aches. We always eat too much.

oh and you know what i hate the most? how you think i'm going to cheat on you and that i'm using you.

i'm always worried about everything and i hate it. 18 seems so far away and i don't want to be left behind if you leave. I hate missing you now, then if you leave i'll be sad all the time. I don't want you to worry about me. damn you...i love you more and more.

p.s. click on gay lords(that was my dad and uncle's)

blahhhh

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 03:07:42 GMT

Chelsea's party, on Saturday, was fun and i finally got to see some people i've been wanting to see since i left eastlake, like cute little kristin. Sunday was fun too, it was my step mom's birthday so we went to a really late breakfast, an art gallery, and then Earth day in balboa where we saw job and alden. Then i went to my mom's house...:) i had a pretty good weekend.

yesterday i went to starbucks and subway with kim and laura. It put me in a much better mood and i gained 3 pounds, woo. well, we all ate SO much and then i went home and felt lonely.

i think all of my friends are mad at me, or most of them. I miss tawnee a lot though, nobody makes me laugh anymore. I don't think i've laughed (a real laugh) since i last hung out with her alone. I'm really selfish, i know. I'm sorry, i really am.

I think i'm doing bad on these tests even though they're really easy. I want good grades and i want to be smart again.

I feel guilty for loving. People ruined my fairy tale dreams and add to my insecurities. There is no proof of "real" love, but i have my own version and i want to feel it. I'm tired of the whole "down with love" movement, lets move onto another fad ladies and gentlemen...oh wait, not that fad. It's all a show, everyone wants to be loved and to love, i believe.

You've been given me that line so many times it kinda gets like feeling bad looks good...crazy for you, baby.